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Video of the Week

Kelly Clarkson's Before Your Love

I wonder how I ever make it through a day
How did I settle for the world in shades of gray
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same And you don't know why
And I looked into your eyes
Where the road stretched out in front of me
And I realized

Chorus
I'd never live
Before your love
I'd never felt
Before your touch
And I'd never needed anyone
To make me feel alive
But then again,
I wasn't really livin'

I'd never lived...
Before your love

I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams, seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you and my heart is in your hands
And I dont know how
I'd survive without your kiss
Cuz you've given me
A reason to exist

Repeat Chorus

I'd never lived... before your love x2

And I don't know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you've breathed your love into me just in time

Repeat Chorus

I'd never lived... before your love x2

Face it

For the past week I've been studying and listening to music at the same time, all day long. It was so tiring and hungry (ing). Sigh... I spend 1 week to finish up 10 chapters of Global Finance. Sigh... I consider myself being "very slow".

Monday's paper was over~ it was, O.K. I work hard for this subject, now everything is up to god now. The next paper is on Friday. Sigh~~~ another no-easy paper. International business essay paper. Sigh Sigh, Have to really 'ganbatei' this time.

Besides being a bookworm for a while, I'm thinking about changing my image a little bit. I found myself being so "blue". I realize all my life, I was being so blue until wearing everything in blue. Only these few days, I realize myself wearing everything blue and that, make me blue all the time. I need to change myself to be more happy and release myself out of the blue.

I'll still need to work hard in my studies and my personal skills. I managed to watch Piano Anime yesterday. Eventhough, its a bit dale coz its kinda old anime but I learned something, that's, never give up anything that are you are passionate about, even if you decide to do so, many people around you will be dissappointed and lose their confidents in you. Sometimes, when you're able to achieved something, people will be happy for you, though now all of them but at least those people are your close one.

I remembered the story of "Piano". A girl, Miu who are so passionate about playing piano and very good in it, finally decided to give up playing piano just because of little difficulty that challenged her life. But, because of her, her friends best friends,Yuuki cut the relationship just to make her realize that all these while, she has been very proud of her, and the music she played gave the feeling of peace and liveness and the message of "love" to everyone who hears it. She, the girl who are passionate about piano finally realized that, she will not give up because she knows that, many people are worrying and support her in many sense, especially her family, friends and her piano teacher and that she will never give up playing piano and will continue playing it, forever.

That's why, I need to be strong in doing everything that I want to do in order to be happy and to see everyone happy and not worrying about me anymore.

br?

"Face challenges with patiences, passions and with love"

So, my dear friends never give up, work for those you loves, giving up is only for loser, so don't give up. =p

Good Luck~!

Wish All MMU-ians, Good Luck for Finals~!

Finally~~!!

Yahoo~! finally finish my last assignment of the semester. Spend 2 weeks to come up with 40 pages of corporate financial report excluding appendix, and that's for my part alone. 40 pages already, eh, I think its 52 pages Hm... did I overdid it? @_@" I don't know, haven't receive any response from any of my groupmate yet coz you know, its 7.00am in the morning. Everyone still dreaming around while I'm still awake since last afternoon.

Now, left 1 week for met to speed up my global finance revision and I have revised for advanced statistics too... god~! this is too much. I don't think I'll have my 'good night' sleep even I finish the assignment.

I spend my whole weekend finishing this report, haven't got the time to go out. I keep myself at least one week now. Now, i don't even know what happening out there. @_@

I managed to watch Air Tv. hahahaa... that's because Ryan was watching and its distract me from my papers. So... no choice, I also need some break. =p

these few days I only listen to these few songs. Repeat over and over again, its so nice and it make me feel like singing. Haha... I like to sing. Music is my life now, without it, I couldn't imagine what life will be.

This is the song I listened while doing my assignment.

Kelly Chen - Ji Shi Ben (Diary)

Elva Hsiao - Ta He Ta De Gu Shi (He and his story)

Yu Heng - Yi Ran Shi Peng You
ching ren jie de chian yi tian
ta li kai ni shen bian
zhi shen sia ni de je jing de shang mian

na yi yeh
wo pei je ni
ni ku le yi jeng yeh
ni shi fou chi tau
wo dui ta yi yang hen xiang nian

chi tau you yi tian
wo he ta pong mian
zai na jian
wo men chang qu de ka fei dian

zhai chi dau you shieh kan shou
wo he ta shei dou bu kan shuo qu ko
wo men zhi jian ying chang le she me
chu le hou zhi ji mei ren dong
ke shi ni
ni je me shuo
ni zi tau hao shi bu shi chong ze bi kai wo ~oh~
wo e yang nan guo
duo si wang wo men bu cheng xiang shi guo

zhai chi dau you shieh kan shou
wo he ta shei dou bu cheng shuo qu ko
wo men dou shi
zui hao de peng you
sui you yong qi qu kai ko
bu zai hu
ni zai nan guo
wo men hai you hao da hao da de tian kong ~oh~
gu shi de zui hou
wo men dou bu cheng shi qu guo
she me...

wo men yi ran shi peng you

Happy Lantern Festival~!

Take this opportunity to wish Happy Lantern Festival to all~! Miss these days, we used to play lantern and light up candles in the neighbour.We also used to have parties with a lots of foods and mooncakes, and create a wonderful, beautiful and enjoyable night. This is the time when family member gather together and enjoy the moment.

The Moon festival was also called the Mooncake or Mid-Autumn festival celebrated on September 18 this year. Every year on the fifteeth day of eighth month of lunar calendar, when the moon is at its maximum brightness for the entire year, the Chinese celebrate “Zhong qui jie.” There is a story behind this festival, for more information, you can visit this websites

"Once upon a Moon"

Enjoy~~!!

For the sake of...

Still stuggling... oh my god~! this is the first time, I spend more than 1 week to finish up an assignment. I've been awake every night till 7 in the morning. I've been eating 2 meals a day, and you know what, my laundry are mountain up, and I still don't have the time to settle myself. Complaining everything in the blog make me very much better. Even now, I take a few minutes to post up everything that's in my mind.

While I'm listening to Yu Heng's Yi rang shi peng you, I'm doing this corporate financial analysis of Ford Motor. Surprisingly, this assignment make me learned something about this company. Ford was claimed to be the 2nd largest automobiles maker in the industry for years now. Founder of Ford Motor was late Henry Ford was creating his own cars and went racing that unexpected earned something that change his whole life. After doing this analysis thing, found out that, Ford Motor has been in financial crisis on year 2001, a loss of over $5 million plus. However, this company is potential company, and indeed a strong company which survive to today. hm...

I guess I do too much of assignment till I blog about it. Sigh... my condition now is very very unhealthy. Not enough sleep, not enough eat, tired and stress. Sigh... now, my progress about 50% completed. Still doing Common-size IS analysis, planned to finish it today together with balance sheet analysis, both trend and common-size analysis, then tomorrow I can concentrate on ratio analysis and the rest. By this weekend, I give myself a break, then start studying for finals. Then, ... ...

What's important now I need to work hard and be strong, strong, strong~~~ For the sake of having a good night sleep. I need to finish up ASAP.

Still listening to the song, repeat over and over again.

The Light

I'm still struggling finish my assignment these few days. I got no time to spare for any entertainment at all. Eventhough I have a little moment to play, I couldn't enjoy it. Damn, I'm so tension right now. A lot of things happening today. I don't have the energy to type it all out, maybe next time. What I can say is, I'm tired, I'm tense, I'm sad, I'm dissappointed, I'm not happy, and I'm feeling like I'm far away from the light.

What should I do to make me feel stronger again? I don't know, but I know I don't want to be lost in the darkness again.

Sigh... this is me, left by her own mother, living all her life finding everything that she could to heal her broken hearted and live complete differently from anyone else. It makes her feel not only different but imcomplete as well.

Wish, I'm a Snowgirl whose skin are fair and white, whose face like an angel who could gives inspiration to anyone that sees her, just like what everyone loves. Maybe my mother won't be leaving me for I'm exactly the opposite.

Now I don't even know where she is. T_T

Torn Between Two lovers

I dreamt a very strange dream last night. Ya, another strange dream. But this time... it is something that I don't want see or feel.

From the dream, I realized that my love life is going to be like this forever and there's not other way to turn back. I realized that I couldn't have another option to choice the partners of my life eventhough I might have a crush on someone else who might be able to give me a better life in future. Because of that dream, I realise all these but I couldn't do anything else because my future road of life and the reality is this road. The road that I'm using now.

It's hard to accept the fact that I might be in love with someone else besides the one that I'm in love right now. I'm afraid it will happen to me and I don't even dare to imagine how it feel like. The one that I in love right now is only Ryan and only he will be with me in my future. Because of these dreams, it make me see the consequences fall in love with somebody else which was not what I want.

That dream left me with guilt and fear. I realize something, I'm afraid of something, but I want something which its impossible for me to get it because I have something that are by fate stays with me forever that make that something chose to go far away from me.

=.=" if you don't understand, then it is better not to understand coz I dont' understand it either.

Strange Dream

Things gone pretty well these two days. Many undone things, finally get in done. I paid my fees today about four thousand plus and have to wait 1/2 hours at the bank and 1/2 hour at Finance Counter. Long que man~ since today is the last day of fees payment, everyone like me pay at the very last minute but paying last minute is not bad at all, at least I earn few buck from Bank Saving Interest. =p Plan to go for hair treatment today but spend most of the time at the bank, plus tonight got replacement class. So...postponed tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. Hopefully within this week, I can't stand my dry hair anymore but I too sayang to cut it. Sigh... no choice. Oh ya~

Yesterday night I have a strange dream. I not sure what I've dreamt but what I remembered is, I'm in a normal terrace house which doesn't look like my house, my mom, my maid, my sister, and my brother was there. I as a first and third person point of view. Weird huh? but that is what I feel.

Its feel like the whole situation was in the house. I was having my new pc, yeah, its new but its completely different from my new pc that I am using now. It was a small type of pc, its CPU was very slim and with LCD slim screen monitor.

Then, at that time, I felt tension with something. It's feel like I was still worrying about the IB Events. @_@" I don't know why, but its true coz I seen our CEO, Mr. Julian visiting my house and talk to me, eventhough I don't remember what he said. And what's weird is, his brother was babysitted by my mom. O.O Its very very very weird coz I never have a direct conversation with Julian, or any contact with him. Not that I fancy him or whatsoever, in real life, I don't really like him, but HOW THE HELL IS HE AND HIS BROTHER IS IN MY DREAM. =.=" the weirdest thing is, I never seen his brother in my whole life. It just like some kids suddenly pop up in my dream. After I saw Julian's "brother",I turned back to my PC, and you know what, suddenly these two same PC pulak! What's funny is, my pc suddenly have 4 Lcd monitor hanging surrounding me. It's way funny when I think about it, coz at that time, I was very confuse and keep thinking which monitor I suppose to see coz every monitor have different views. Then... (I awake because of some stupid motorcycle making stupid noise).

Weird... weird... and sound stupid. sigh... I know I'm kinda blur person, but I never thought, I also a blur person in my dreams. Frankly, this is not the only strange dream I have. I dreamt of many strange dreams, no matter how scary it was, when I told the story to my roomate or any or my friend, they only laugh at me. =(

Fight within Me

3 weeks from now, I'm going to have my first final paper. I'm freaking out everytime thinking of it. Time passes so fast like a blink of eye. There's only few weeks left before everything over. I'm waiting for a new beginning in new sem but I guess, I have to be strong to go through this, eventhough its so painful whenever thinking about it.

This sem, I failed to overcome the my fear of being rejected, lot of things happening within my mind. Its like I having a conversation and dealing with the other side of me. I tried to convince myself that, everything will be fine, we do whatever we should do. There are times I broke down but then, it's alot better than last time. I learned my lesson well and I hope for gods blessing to help me go through few weeks.

I believe that in order to get something, you need to sacrifice something. I wonder if you all agree with me.

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