Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Yahoo~! finally over~
Yeah~! finally over~!! IB night was a success. I'm so happy till I couldn't do anything else but jumping jumping around. Haha... think i'm crazy. LoL
It was a great night, great day and tiring day too. I went to MP that day to buy clothes, coz I don't have any clothes to wear on such events. =.=" So, went to MP with Lay Fen, but some makeup stuff too. Spend quite alot that day. Sigh...
But then, it was great. I wore sleeveless black blouse and skirts with high heels. Haha... they say I look nice. ^_^" kinda perasan. Well, since I wore High heels, I couldn't help much on that night. Went there a bit late coz the drivers was late. =.=" Isn't good for me coz I didn't perform well as a commitee. Feel so down, but... I'm happy that the events was better than what I've expected. Haha...
It was a wonderful night, nice performance from Dina. Haha.. how lucky that she performed my favourite song, Impossible. Haha... so nice~~~~
I couldn't describe much about IB Night, all i can say is its was great eventhough IB Carnival isn't that good.
I'll try to post some pictures in my picture blog, hopefully these few days. Now, I have to rush my assignments. Hopefully I can finish all my assignments by this week.
And ar... I just finish my advanced statistics test2 today... ... ... ... I'm failing. T_T zenzen wakaranai~
Hm... plan to finish up assignment these week, and there's another test next week. =.="
Oklah... I got no time to lose. Lot of things to do... haha.
Sigh... my blog getting boring... Have to do something... >.< Sigh
6.6 I guess... I just finish up my assignment first lol.
Monday, August 22, 2005
IB~! IB~! IB~!
WooHoo~! 100th Hits!! yeah~! yeah~! hahaha... so many people read my diary *blush *blush Anyway, arigatou gozaimasu~! Next time, I'll put radio in this blog to make entertain you all ar.. heehehe =p
Man, I'm going to be crazy thinking of IB every single day. Arg... whenever I go, there's only IB in my head.
As you can see my previous post, me and my groups are doing recycle campaign for our IB fundraising. I know its a bit dale and it have nothing to do with International Business anyway. But, there isn't much we can do, we are out of time and... we get the lowest fund among the whole class. T.T
I went begged for recyclable items. Did promotion on Mymmu classified... forward YM message, SMS, 24 hours status "Recyclabe items wanted". Luckily, there are people response to me. It's just pure luck that I can get more items. I even drink more soft drinks just to get the cans. LOL. My friends call me 'siao' for doing there. But, what to do? I don't want to die just becoz of this project.
Another IB thing is the Carnival and Nite, till now, I can't imagine how IB carnival will be. What I know is there will be something like ... ... . Em... still no idea, but I know IB Nite is going to be a great one with Dina is our main attraction, and hahaha, the prizes for lucky draws. I'm hoping to get the Astro and that microwave, but too bad I'm not qualified coz I don't own a ticket. I only sell it. So, its like i'm selling away those Astro and Microwaves and other fantastic prizes. =.="
For the past few days, this is all I've been doing and it will still be going on until end of week. After that I'm going to be crazy rushing all the assignments and study for Finals.
Oklah... its 3 o'clock in the morning and I still having my dinner/breakfast, then I'll have to study for Global Finance. =.=" Pray and pray and pray that people will buy more tickets for me/donate for us, this is my first time involve in organizing event, hopefully our event is a success. And also... pray pray pray for my Global finance and HR exam this week. GOOD LUCK TO ME.
[ish... forgotten to publish the post]
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
RECYCLABLE ITEMS WANTED~!!!!
Wanna Get rid of old Newspapers? Empty bottles?
We are the IB 2005/2006 batch, group 4 students, we are doing recycling campaign, to collect all recyclable items from you. The purpose of this campaign is for Fundraising and Charity purposes. Our recycling campaign only within this two week.
Recyclable items includes:
1.Food and Beverage containers - aluminium Cans, Tin/Steel Cans, Glass Bottles, and Plastic Bottles.
2. Mixed Paper and Cardboard
3. Laser Tones Cartridge & Ink Jet Cartridge
4. Batteries
5. Magnetic Reel to Reel computer Reels
6. Cd-Roms & Jewel Cd Case
7. Computer and electronic
For Your Information, we will organize a wonderful event that is International Business Carnival/IB Nite.
Many multinational company such as Maxis, Walt etc will be doing exhibition on two days carnival. There are many other company joining this International Business days as well. As for the IB nite, there will be special performance by Dina, one of Malaysian Idol best contestant.
There will be other performance as well such as, International Dance which are dances that are from various country. It is seldom to see this kind of dances elsewhere. Plus, there will be performance by MMU student. There will be a sketch performance and most exciting moment is the lucky draws. There are many branded products to be grab.
I'm selling tickets for the IB Nite. So if you interested to come for the event, please call me as soon as possible because we have limited seat for the IB nite. ^_^
Details
IB CARNIVAL
Date: 26/08/2005 - 27/08/2005
Venue: Malacca International Trade Center
Entrance: Free of Charge
IB NITE
Date:28/08/2005
Venue: Malacca International Trade Center
Entrance:RM15.00 only
Transportation: MMU student only
Will be updated and comfirmed the time by tonight.
You can contact me if you have recycling items to collect/buying tickets/donate
My contacts
Susan
Tel: 012 323 6358
Email: snowrain_0220@yahoo.com
y!: snowrain_0220
msn: snowrain_0220
We're hoping for your kindness in order to help us raise our fund for this event and charity by recycle your unwanted things or you can donate to us by bank-in/online transfer/bank-draft/cheque to me.
YEOH LI CHING
840110-10-5332
BCB BANK: 12140066665523
ADDRESS: 656C, JALAN DELIMA, TMN BUKIT MELAKA, BUKIT BERUANG, 75450 MELAKA.
For those who donated, we send our warmest thank you and we are very happy and appreciate whatever you have contribute.
Please come to our event.
Thank you very much and God Bless You.
Monday, August 15, 2005
So unfortunate...
Ok, I'm done with my 'All about Me' stories. Never going to repeat it again. For the past few days, I don't feel like myself. I'm so moody and I just want to stay in a place and sleep for the whole weekend, but I've to go for classes and all. Sigh...
Last week, I was thrown a surprise assignment. =.=" that's whylah! missing class somemore, that is the punishment for missing classes. That day was Wednesday, I was called by Sabrina and arranged a meeting at her house. So, I thought it was for the group project. I went there with Mary-Ann, it was nice to visit somebody's house once a while. Sabrina's house is a nice one. I like her room, pinky feeling. Haha...
So, at that time, I wasn't sure what assignment are we discussing, and... I'm too hesitate to ask and I feel so 'teruk' if I wasn't prepare for any meeting that I was going to attend. So, I just follow the flow and see what happen lol. Then, what happen, I found out that we have to do a Interview Sketch for the next day tutorial class. Once again, I'm +.+" ... speechless. I was helping answering the interview question and I wasn't inform that I will be the 'candidate' for the sketch, and... I have to memorize everything that I was written. So... again @_@". We make few rehearsal that night, after that, Sherlyn bf send us home. But... I won't be able to sleep because I have to create a script and memorize it by tomorrow 2pm.
I was so nervous but at the end... everything worth it because we are the only group that meet all the criteria for that presentation and it contains 10 marks but I don't know how many marks we get. but.. i'm happy with it.
After that, I was relief but then, there so much things to do. Oh ya! forgotten to tell. I LOST MY PENCIL CASE ON WEDNESDAY DURING IB CLASS. T.T I'm so sad... this is the 2nd time. Omg~! when I told Ryan or Lay Fen. They were 'aih....'. Like they know that this will always happening to me. Aih... But I won't be so worry about it la. I'll buy a another one which will be a bigger one so that I can SEE. >.<
I have BST exam on Friday. I just start studying 3 hours before but I think I did it not bad. Hopefully I can pass. @.@"
Last Saturday, I was playing SIM2, hahah this time I can use the build tools. It so much fun. I like being able to create something that suits my taste - my dream house. Haha... Hm... Exams, assignment deadline and IB nite/carnival are just around the corner. I cannot fool around anymore. I have to start being serious. Erm...
Sunday, August 14, 2005
All about Me Cont.
Ah! finally there's someone comment on my post. But, it says 'Don't Bluff'. Wth! which of my sentence said that I bluff? Sigh... Whatever I said is what I remember and it is the truth. If you know better than me, then just say it right in front of me.
Nothing be the same again...
after that, I blindly enter a private university in Malaysia which claim to be the Most expensive university. I never think of entering any university or any college because I never expose to people that went to university or college before. It is just accidently met a friend of my dad's who recommended me to enter this U. So... here I am.
Being a university student is a hard start for me. I've been suffering from love sick, home sick and every sick that can happen to me. Sigh... I screw up everything the first year, my result deteriorated from one semester to another semester but luckily my certificate doesn't show the CGPA result. That is when my x and I broke up.
A few months after that, I met a guy, online. We met and went out few times. He's very caring and take a very good care of me. So, few months after that we been together.
My life shine again, I worked harder for my studies again. I do anything... to push up my CGPA. But sometimes, its too tough for me, but I never give up. That's why my CGPA up and down every year. Sigh... I realize that, I should be active and communicate with more people in order to make life easier. If not, I have to do everything by myself and not to mention I easily stress.
I'm not a confident person, because I'm not smart, not pretty, not even talk well. I guess I'm not that good after all. Maybe whatever I achieved so fast is just pure luck.
I took a 1 sem leave once because of me having depression. All those stress from the hostel, studies, and my health keep pushing me out of my mind. But then, its all over already. Now, I have to paid everything that I've left behind. Remains me of Full Metal Alchemist Anime which repeat this words "Equivalent trade". Whatever we want, we have to trade/sacrifice whatever that has the equivalent/same in value". Its helps me. We want something, we have to sacrifice another thing. That is my principle of life... I mean for me.
I'm trying very hard to achieve whatever I can, I really tried very hard. I hope my friends and family will understand. I'm a kind of person who doesn't know how to express my own feeling to peoples. The habit of keeping everything myself is a natural habit in me.
I wanted to say so long that I love you all and thanks for taking care of me for so long, I'll try my best to achieve something that make you all happy. I want to become a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, a good student, a good gf, a good citizen, a good human.
Sometimes, I try to put everything behind me so that I can move forward. Once I've told everything in this blog, a diary of mine. I will never look back again.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
All about Me
Everybody has their own natural personality from the day are born. Some people's personality are inherited from their own parents and some people learned from the environment. As people grow older, we tend to change in order to fit ourself in the society. That's is why we said we are living in a diversify society where people in the society have different personalities, cultures and races, and it blend together and become a multicultural society.
I am buddhist chinese, everyone in my family is also a buddhist chinese except for my stepmother who is a Catholic Philippino. We celebrate both Chinese New Years and Christmas every new year and end of the year.
I grown up from a broken family, that is because both of my parents divorced and I live with my dad together with my younger brother. At that time, what I was thinking is to replace my mom who do all the housework and manage the family. I help to wash the dishes, clean the laundry, iron the clothes, broom the floor, mop the floor, and cook once a while. I wanted to help my family so that they don't feel lost and sad. However, the philippino come into our family and do all that jobs. What I can at that time is to take care my brother who misses his mom so much and he was just 7 years old. I always by him side to advise him, to scold him and to play with him. As he enter teen age, he become stubborn, and try to act on his own without me bothering him. All I can do is to watch and scold. And me... I spend most of my teenages life thinking what I should do to make everyone happy until one time, I complete lost myself.
I feel I've lost everything... I'm done very badly in my studies every semester eventhough I still can pass my PMR test. I doesn't have many friends in school or the neighboorhood. My dad was working everytime, and he keep remaining us to take care of ourself and don't give him trouble because he has too many problems already. At that time, the only person I can talk to is the unknown people online. I begin to have friends online and I talked everything to them, that's how I release my stress, by talking to unknown people about my feelings and my problems.
From the day I started use Internet, I feel that there's something I can do to make myself happy. That is to make my own websites, to share my interest to the world. I made my very first pure HTML websites at the age of 14 years old. From that day on, I spend most of my time with Internet and completely forgotten to interact with real people.
As years goes by, I met a guy online, and we have a secret relationship that nobody knows I have. He is my first boyfriend. Well, I doesn't wanna talk about him anyway. We together since I was 16 years old and split up 3 years after that. Well then, its all over.
Before I ended my form 3, I was awarded the Brightest Student in the Class, well actually I was in the worst class. When I reached form 4, I begin to think about my future. What I want to be and what I want to achieved in future. At that time, all I want is to make my family happy and when they are happy, I'm happy too. That's why I chose business field. I work hard to get the best result in my final year exam, SPM. Eventhough, I was in a economic class, people tend to look down at me because the people I mix with doesn't have a very good attitude and studies record. Plus, nobody knows that I can do better than anyone else in economic classes in the school. Even my family doesn't expect anything from me. The result for my achievement during form 4 is, I was awarded the best student achievement for Economy subject. My family was very proud of me. Friends starts to approach me. Well, I still keep everything by myself because why??... I don't like people to befriend with me because of something else. The way I look and the people I mix with make them feel that I am a low graded people.
There few times that I wanted to start a relationship with the top student and I get ignored. From that time, I told myself that I will never be a friend with top student again. During form 5, I tried my very very best to get best result so that I can beat the Top student in school. Eventhough, I always sick and stay in the house, I studied. I even had a rival in the class and actually I treat her like best friend but then, my dad kept saying that she using me. Sigh... I don't know whether she using me or not... till now, I still have no idea. What I feel is I feel weird everytime I saw her.
From that day on, I befriend with nobody. I don't trust anyone anymore. I just focus on me and let myself shine in front of the school. I want to prove everyone that I am not what they think they saw. They will never understand me because they never think of people inner side. They always say, Don't judge a book by its cover. Well, what they say they never did, and it hurts me very much. At end of Form 5, I awarded the BEST ART SCHEMES STUDENT, BEST COMMERCE SUBJECT, and BEST GENERAL SCIENCE SUBJECT. I was rated the top 3 student in SPM result with 8As. That is when I surprise everyone, even my family doesn't expect me to get such result. Those hypocrites begin to approach me, congrate me, and what I did is I said Thank You and walk off.
From that time onwards, nothing is the same again.
To be Cont.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Holiday's Report
There it goes, 1 week of holiday. Fly~~ just like that. What I've done during that holiday?? Well, I played CS:S and Sims2 for the whole week. Hahaha.... 
Haha... not 24 hours playing of cause, I still have to eat, drink and bath to survive you know. Hm... oh well, what I actually did when I was alone for that whole damn week is...
Saturday - Cleaned the toilet, Cleaned my 3 tortoise, Play SIM2 Cook Soya Mee Soup for dinner, went 7 Eleven, bought Cornflakes and ate as supper while playing SIM2. LOL
Sunday - Cleaned my laundry, Watched Mahou Sensei Negima 9 and 10, Watched Full Metal Alchemist 1 - 8 and SIM2 and CS:S, cook herbal chicken rice soup for dinner, Update my blog, ate Milo and Cornflakes cereal as supper.
Monday - Cleaned Ryan's room, played SIM2, Watched Mahou Sensei Negima 11 and 12, went to pasar malam to restock my food supply and bought Rojak as dinner, and also bought 3 movies to cure my boredom. Bwitched, Stleath and The Island. I watched Bwitched that day, and >.<>
Tuesday - Ate Bah Chang that the Landlady gave me as lunch, after that, played CS:S. Cook fried rice to eat as dinner then play SIM2 again. Watched Mahou Sensei Negima 13 and 14.
Wednesday - Washed my bedsheets, and my stuffed toys. Ate Herbal Chicken rice soup again for dinner then play Sim2 and CS:S. Before went to bed, I watched Mahou Sensei 15 and 16.
Thursday - Played Sim2, ate Chicken Rice for lunch and Maggi for dinner. Watched Mahou Sensei 17 and 18.
Friday - Cleaned the house, Played CS:S and .. em, i forgotten what I ate for lunch and dinner. Gosh! I'm old. T.T I know I played CS:S and Sim2 and watched Mahou Sensei 18 and 19.
Saturday - Watched Mahou Sensei 20 and The Island ^_^ ok oklah the movie, the only thing is I buy 'not a good version'. Fed up with Sim2 because its Build Tools doesn't work. So, I uninstall and Install SIM1, became worst, something wrong with the graphic, I think So... uninstall again and Install Singles. Sigh... not nice to play so, unstall again and install Restaurant Empire. Ah... so I play it until now lo.... hohohho
Sunday - Ryan came back with panda eyes and exhausted look. We went dinner at Ah Kong Restaurant to eat big meal. LoL, since 1 week never eat much meat. So I sapu... habis. LoL So...
That's all la... what I did last week. If you were me, you must be bored to dead huh? like no life. Sigh... it's ok for me because I never had a very good rest before holiday. So I guess I just considered resting lol.
This is the first time I never went back for my holiday. T.T
Its ok now, its over right. What I should do now is how to recover my studies... I've Statistics Test 1 this week and Test 2 next week. And Global Finance Midterm next week as well. I must really gambate. Em...
Yesterday night, I never had a good night sleep because I was thinking too much and worry too much about my studies and the classes that I missed. Ryan told me not to worry, we need to be relax, we cannot ourself to solve everything in once. Choose one task at a time if multitasking is not possible. Em... I accept the way I am, I know I'm kinda slow and blur all the time, I should give certain things a break. If not I'll break. @_@
Oklah... need to stop here. Share with you guys, today's song.
Kelly Clarkson - Addicted
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
