Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Unforgettable Xmas Eve
I just came back from hometown today, it was so unlucky since I went back the other day. At first, I thought everything will be alright, after buying all my family xmas present, but it seems that the worst is yet to come.
Taking the bus scheduled to leave at 3pm but it left at 15 minutes late. So, its fine for me. I was seated beside a Indian girl who wearing killing red blouse and she was dark skinned and she has very long, black, iron-straighted hair. So, its kinda unusual for me to see people dressing like that especially during travelling and on bus particularly.
Beside the slow~ movement of the bus, it was raining that day, there's so many cars everywhere. Going to celebrate xmas holiday, I suppose. Sigh, too bad I have to leave that late for xmas.
So, I was very bored at that time since I haven't get back my mp3 player from T. So, I just listening to the buzzing sound malay radio channel on air at that time. So, I was particularly heard that "there is a terrible traffic jam at Senawang" which at that time, I thought it must be at KL which is not. I am sure about this when suddenly, we was stucked at the middle of a TERRIBLE traffic jams in the middle of the highway and when I saw the signboard beside the roadside, written there" Perhentian SENAWANG". I was like... shit!
and there it goes, stuck there about 30 minutes, and while we are moving very very very slowly, I saw about 5 or 6 cars broke down and I guess, their engine must be overheated. There's two car accident, and one of them involve taxi which smash into area at the middle of road, and the other one, which I not sure what or who involve coz it was at my blind spot.
So that why, the it jammed so long, because of those people, who I guessed must be speeding, or fall asleep or forgotten to check the vehicle before they take off. Sigh... That's is one of Malaysia main problem, high rate road accident.
At that time, even the bus is moving, the whole highway, was full of cars. We can only move at usual pace after an hour. Sigh... luckily it was raining day. I rather be in the bus while its cold weather rather than hot weather. I would be crazy especially seated beside a girl who keep calling her mom and complain about the traffic jams, and what worst, she talk to herself along the way. =.=" Well, I just pretend I don't hear anything. I just seat still and relax.
So, everything ok after that, so I was relieved, relax abit, then you know what happen suddenly, the girl beside me, cried suddenly while talking to the phone. Since she talking in Tamil, I wasn't sure what was wrong with her. My guess is that, she must be quarrelling with her bf. =.=" again, the one nearest to us, looking at her, and sigh... why I was there, I was so stiff that I couldn't even rest my mind. +.+
I finally reached at Klang bus station around 7pm. As I predicted, late by 1 hour. T fetched me back home. Along the way, I saw so many cars on the road, it was heavily rain, I was abit dissappointed, its xmas eve, we couldn't go anywhere or else stuck in traffic jam. That is what I think at that time, but never know that the worst thing haven't appear.
When I was nearby my Taman, I saw that drains couldn't be seen anymore, it gone worst when we get nearer at our house. Everywhere around us was flooded. It was my first time in my 20 years that this areas was flooded. It was about 10inch deep, I suppose. It was a very terrible situation at that time, all the cars and motorcycle couldn't move because the road, the drain all covered up with water, its too difficult to differentiate whether that is a drain or that is the road. There is one car actually drove in the drain. Sigh, luckily our house was nearby and T was good when recognizing the road. So, we drove home safely. The only thing surprise me is that, our house was flooded too, but compare with other houses, our house consider the luckily on coz the base of our house has been renovated to be higher than usual level. But then, it still cannot escape the water from coming in, our kitchen floor was full with water. So, I spend my xmas eve cleaning up.
Sigh... what a xmas eve..
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Christmas Wishes
Xmas Day is around the corner. Eventhough, I'm not a christian but, we celebrate xmas every year. This day is where we went to church with my stepmom who is the only christian in our family. We joined the celebrate with her, like every other christian, we have christmas trees, we have christmas presents, we went to church... we make an open house on xmas eve. Last year christmas was not so lucky due to the devastating tsunami in asia. It mark 1 year on this 26th December after 1 year the disaster happened.
We will always remember the lives that we have lost, and the destruction that disaster has caused.
We should be grateful that we have live until today, we should do more good deeds for people around us. This year xmas,
Wish to have a Joyful Xmas & Happy New Year.
Dedicated this song for all of you~! Merry X'mas
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Simply post
Sigh, I guess I just never change, always do the same wrong thing again. Time passes so fast that you couldn't even imagine.
I could see what will happen to me within next 3 or 4 months. Busy day, stressful work and studies, tiring routine and emotional unstable ME. What I could do now is to stay strong. Eventhough the mission for this semester failed completely. I'll try harder next semester.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Bollywood Experience ^_^"
When I woke up this morning, the first thing on my mind is "what the hell"? you know why?
I had a dream yesterday, I was in a my house, but it doesn't look exactly like my house because the kitchen look something like mamak stall kitchen.
What happen is, I bring my sister to school, but end up, sending her to a place that looks like a swimming pool club, and what's weird is, its situated beside my kitchen. 6.6 I looked at her walking in through the gate, then, I went back the the kitchen to order some food which is kinda weird too coz I'm ordering food in my house kitchen. 6.6" and I dapao'ing =.="""
Then, what terrifying me is that, while I was waiting for the food, there was a man, look quite man, and handsome, but what funny is, he's look like a bollywood star. ^_^" So, that man from my back, holding my hand, and I could feel heart beat, and I feel like the first time, I hold hand with Ryan. The feelings so real, so warm and so passionate. Then, you know what happen, he suddenly take my hand and walk around me, and we were like dancing just like in the bollywood movie. >.<"
Then... I woke up. ^_^" weird huh?
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Tiring Day
I wake up 10am this morning to get ready to campus. Yes, I know today is Saturday, no class right? well, I was going together with
Trinite Hicom to see the venue for our prom nite - Eq Hotel
I met a lot of new people,
talented and strong people I believe. I learned a lot too from they way they talk and deal with outsider.
Amanda is our design division director, so basically I just follow her around and gives some ideas on how to decorate the hall and so on. We leave Eq around 3pm, then we headed to MP to have our
McDonald lunch. ^^ After that, we went back home.
Later that evening, we, me and Ryan went to
Irelax for the
E-Sport SiG Cybercafe gathering. ^^ We walked there, about
500m from our house. ^_^" Before we reach there, we were actually
worry that nobody will show up for this gathering. So while we have our dinner near Irelax, we were discussing about why the response is so bad, and so on. Then, we start thinking about what E-Sport SIG going to do next. So, ... we just discussing and discussing until around 7.00pm to 8.00pm. We went in the cc and waited for 5 mins, then, luckily,
1 person came, at least one person but then, we were still worried about what are we going to do with 3 person in CC. Then, we're so surprised that
Moses, Lawrence and Sin Lin came. So, 6 of us played
DoTA 3 vs 3, then later, some teams came to invite us for a play. So we played
5 vs 5. ^^
Eventhough, the team I played
defeat 2 times. ^_^" coz it was my first time playing DoTA and i'm still a bit blur by it. Overall, I'm
happy and satisfied.
After that, we headed for
supper. ^^ yeah~! yeah~! never been to supper with so many people. hehehe... i'm happy. After that, Sin Lin sent us back.
I'm tired, yet feeling very happy. ^^
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Problems
Sigh, I've been out of class for 2 weeks. All because of this stupid skin of mine. T_T
Right now, have 3 major problem....
- PTPTN repayment + unsettle tuition fees
- Poor class Attendance
- Piano Fees
- Bills
Sigh, most of my problems is money~ why our life depend on money too much. How am I going to find more money? Anyone Please help me??
I tried to escape from the problems for a while, so I decided to watch dramas and let the days pass. I finished watching 2 more dramas last week.
One -> Vampire III HK SeriesTwo -> Devil With Me Taiwanese SeriesFor me, Vampire III is kinda like fiction, mythologically kind of stories. What make this series special is that it have time travel element. You will see the ancient chinese style + modern western style. This series is the 3rd part of the whole series. Eventhough I've never watched the series before, I found it quite interesting to watch.
Devil With Me is a basically a love stories. A stories about a girl who accidently confessed to the wrong guy who are popular and rusker kind of fighter boy. They eventually, they fall in love with each and just about everything start to become prefect the situation begin to get worst when they find out that their parents are getting married and they are to become brother and sister. This series tells how they face their difficulty along the way.
After watching, the only one who has bad ending is me. I have to face the problem again but I guess no more running away. Must find solution, but what ler~~~~
Friends invited me to join Shaklee Direct sales agent which I don't really like but ... it gives good income too but then, I don't have much confident in it, I mean the products. I've never heard of it before. What should I do? my instinct told me not to join but my mind told me it won't hurt to join, I only have to pay RM65.
My dears friends~~~~ what do you think?
Saturday, December 03, 2005
It's Time to Grow Up
These few days, I've been watching dramas, and reading Buddha's teaching book. I learned that, a lot of thing happen in this world, occur because it is mend to happen due to changes in life. Life will change whether we like it or not. People will change, environment will change, everything will change.
Life is dramatic, rise and fall, sad and happiness, birth, sickness and death. I doesn't know how to put it, but what I feel is that, every people will go through a circle of life, but people struggle to search for contant happiness that are never be contant. They're the one who involve in corruption, raping, killing, stealing, bluffing and other crimes that hurt others. People can change, for better or worst, it is you who decide, once decided, never regret, and follow the path that you choose, I believe nobody wants to be bad guys. Even if there is people who chose to be bad guys, and hurts people and living things, means they are actually hurting themself. They will suffer the same pain and regret at the end.
That's why, at first, we must tell ourself that, don't expect or ask for anything more than what we have in our life right now. Be grateful and not greedy. Appreciate everything that are in front of your eyes. Tell yourself, "Don't demand, won't suffer".
This is what I've learned, I try to remind myself these basic yet difficult to commit things.
I want to make my parents happy, whether they are divorced, remarry or whatever. They are the one who brought me into these world. Eventhough some people told me, why we live a life, if it will someday end. I told them, because life is invisibly short, we will never know when we will go someday, that is why, we must appreciate every moment, every person, and every things that is in our life right now coz every single things give us a wonderful memory and silent happiness to us. Yes, it will end someday, living things will dies, people dies, so what? it is better to end up happily than to end up with sadness and regrets at the end, right?
Always tell myself, While we live, do good things, be positive, when things turn ugly, be strong, face it and move on. We must accept contant changes, and not contant happiness.
My parents wish to see me, one day become a good and successful human being. It is their wish. I will work hard and try to grant their wishes. I hope someday my brother and my sister know that respect, love and to make them happy is our responsibility. Parents make mistakes too, we must always ready to forgive them.
Hahaha...
Back to what I suppose to report today. I have accepted Amanda's invitation to join the Trinite design division committee. Hehe, thanks to Amanda for giving me this opportunity, eventhough I don't know what I can do or what I capable of especially in designing field. I once fantasized becoming a designer,well, I guess that is very long long long time ago but then, because of the desire to learn more things in life, I decided to take part. Well as you see, becoming an organizing commitee is not easy. You have to work, and suffer, but then, for me it is only a little suffering. To learn things is a good thing, gaining knowledge is a good thing, helping other is a good things, making other people happy is a good things. My little suffering and sacrifice will all worth it. ^_^
However, nobody knows what will happen tomorrow, that's why I always remind myself to be positive, kind and strong every day. I might fall someday, but I'm not afraid, coz I accept the fact that nothing is contant, life changes. Happiness will never last forever, sadness is part of life but it will never stay forever.
There is another news, I also join Emina GACC promotion division. I hope to learn more things and know more people. Trying to make people happy and make myself happy, even if it is for a while. ^_^
Hm, at the end, I can conclude that, If we desire something positive, we will receive something positive, if we desire something negative, we will receive something negative, either type of desire will cause suffering. Happiness is not something that is contant and so do sadness.
Hm, what if we desire positive turn out to be negative? hm... If you or I understand the these I've said, we will feel dissappointed, but we will accept the consequences or failure, and take it as a source of knowledge and experience. But if you dont' understand, you will only dissappointed, and sad. It might either lead you to two ways, the wrong ways and right ways.
Hahaha... I guess, I have to stop my stupid theory, if I still continue, I guess until tomorrow morning, I also can not finish.
