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Saturday, February 10, 2007
The Ladder

Everybody has their wishes, dreams and goals to achieve. They're willing to go through all the troubles to achieve those goals. Sacrifices ain't taken as something serious because they believe it's worth it.

That is life, we make choices. Everyday we made decisions. The choices that we make lead us to the route to our dreams, our goals, our wishes, and our destiny. The options that we left behind is the sacrifices that we made. It is the route that we're not taken. People who are confident and know exactly what they want, they will never look back and certainly will not care about the sacrifice that they made. In their eyes and their mind, are so focus until one day, they are the one who will achieved what they have always wanted.

Of cause, it ain't easy, plenty of people in this world are suffering because we all have to climb ladders to reach to the top. On your way up, there might be slacks because once in a while, you have to stop climbing and you have to sit down watching people around you keeping their pace climbing up the stairs. Why people stop climbing? Maybe because they're tired? Maybe because of confusion, about whether the ladder they're taking is the ladder that they want? or Maybe some other factors like people below you needs your help to pull them up. Or maybe simply, you're just taking a rest...

I do have my own dreams and I'm climbing my ladders to reach to the tops. At the top, is my happiness, my destiny and my everything. Like everyone else, but slightly and unlikely like everyone else, I used to climb the wrong ladders, taking the wrong route, made all the wrong decisions. I stop at that single step for a very long long time. At that time, I was confused of who I want to be and what I want to do and what are my dreams. That's why everything that I did is wrong coz i'm not aiming the right targets. Losing my ways, I fell to the ground. At the ground, you couldn't get anything because people will only walk pass you and left you behind. You stayed in the dark while the light is up there.

Hurt and wounded, I climbed another ladder that I believe suit me more. So I keep on climbing and still climbing. While others might be on top, I'm still stepping on the first few steps but it is alright because as long as I keep believing of what I'm believing right now, I will be fine.

I have goals to achieve
I have to make choices of which ladder to climb or which route to take and I have to make sacrifices.
Sometimes I have to stop in the middle of the route, because problems will occur no matter how perfectly the route you might think it is.
If I failed, I will never give up, because I can climb the ladder again, and alternatively, there's always another ladder to climb.

Therefore, we shouldn't give up so easily if you want to achieve something that you always want. So, Let's climb ladders! (even there is a lif, the pace is about the same ^_^" don't believe you can try, the only different is, one you have to use your energy to climb and another no need energy because you just stand there, you rely on other things to bring you up, so what's the point?)

Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Nbtd...

Well... nothing much to say actually. These few days, I found myself to be alone most of the time. Sometimes I'm glad i'm alone, but sometimes... it ain't feeling very good.

I miss him very much. Haven't seen each other very long d~ sigh.. miss my sister too. The other day I call her up, she screamed, when she know I call her. ^_^"

There isn't much news from dad regarding my stepmom. Not sure about what has happened over there. My bro is not talking very much. No call from him.

Today I receive a surprise call from my mom. ^_^" I was happy when she called, but unfortunately I was unable to take her phone. So... she left a msg, saying that she's no money already and ask us no need to visit her during cny.

Sigh... ... ... (dissappointed)

I didn't say much, I don't know what to say to her. I just don't know why, my reaction very damn slow nowdays. I'm getting very very very impatient about myself.

sigh... ... ... don't know what's wrong with me.

I went for my choir this evening. It was great, it's nice to meet up with the rest of the gang there again. Eventhough, not much ppl show up, it's still ok. I met new friends but I don't remember their names. Sigh...
Oh! one more thing... our group will perform in COS concert on April and I'll be performing too. ^^

You know... I so wu liao~ take my own picture again... hahah

Erm... click here

Oklah... I better go to bed. Goodnite.. ppl.

Thursday, February 01, 2007
First month of the Year




New Year Eve


I spent my new year eve with Derrick, we have a great time. He brought me to watch fireworks in KL. It was a wonderful night. I have no special resolution this year but to wish to have more peaceful year. When everything in peace, I believe we are more calm in everything that we do.

My Birthday

Yeap, my birthday is on the 10th. Previous year, I spent my birthday drinking beer and eating pizza. I was quite lonely, hahah coz that is the time everyone was having their exam while I'm on leave. That time I was still with my Ryan and during that time also, I known Ivan was my neighbour. Well, it's a year now. Things changes rapidly, I moved out and dear Ryan became my X. Ivan remains as unsolved mystery. ^_^" Derrick suddenly came into my life. As I said, things changes.

Anyway, this year, I refuse to celebrate my birthday because of things that happened for the past 2 months. I found myself no point of celebrating as only the number increasing. People get older day by day and moreover, I have no mood to celebrate anything. Well, my baby insist to celebrate my birthday. So, what to do? I just want to make her happy and forget all the things that happened. She ask my dad to bought a cake. I spent them for a pizza dinner. Again... ^_^"
You know, I like pizza. hhahaha... Derrick not with me during that time, but it is ok, he's busy and tired, purposely wake up 5am to wish me 'Happy Birthday' =p That's sweet.

This year, I'm happy though coz most of my friends wish me. Thanks a lot!

Babysitting

Last month, I've become a mother to my sis because her mother are not here. Everything changes. We held responsibilities, and we live our life differently. Completely different from before. Before, everything has been taken care off but now, we have to do everything by ourself. I had a difficult time at the beginning but somehow I managed to go through without any breaks because I understand that if I break, everyone will break with me. I don't want this to happen to us especially when someone actually looked down at us. We must be strong, we kept this belief along the way.

How I go through everyday life there...

Everyday... I had to wake up at 6am because I became an alarm for my baby sis. Lot of things have to do just to wake her up ^_^". Calling her, shake her, drag her ... adoi~ but it's ok. She's still young, when she grow older, she will know how to wake up by herself. :p

Then, I had to escort her to her school coz she's not yet familiar with her schoolmates. One thing is that she can't speak Malay very well. All these while, she's trained to speak only English. That's why, she couldn' t mix well with other children and that makes her no interest to go school. I know these problems, that's why I take sometimes to teach her to speak Malay or else, she will have nobody to teach her when I'm here in Melaka. She's a fast learner. The only things she not good at is Maths. Sigh...

You know, one of the thing I'm worst at is teaching. Maybe I never be a good teacher after all

Working day

Because of my sis and my bro, I had to go work at 9am sometimes even 10am. Sigh... feeling so shy coz came late to work. Lots of things to be done coz I'm leaving soon. My collegue is still not familiar with my job, sooner or later, she will have problems covering every jobs that I'm been doing and plus, sometimes, she couldn't covered her own jobs. So I have to prepare things for her, just to make things easier for her. I'm not worry too much before I left, coz dad's employed Steven to our department. With his existence, I believe the company have the chances for fast recovery. Before I left, I spent 2 days OT just to make sure things are alright before I leave.

Moving in

Last week, I made my bro to drive to Melaka, just to transport my stuff to my new house. So... I stuffed everything that I can into a car but I guess, not everything I can take. I left my boaster and my Teddy there. >.<

Trip to KL

The day before I went back to Melaka, I spend a night in KL with my sisters, Yean Fern and Lay Fen. We stayed in a hotel called Hotel Cardogan, if I'm no mistaken ^_^". It was pleasant, everything was ok except the air-con but still acceptable. The room is Rm150. So Rm50 per person.

For the first day, we went shopping whole day in Times Square. Lot of people shopping there coz of Chinese new year. I spent only about RM90 for tops during that day. Well, I had to save for the next day, that's why I dare not spend to much on that day.

The next day, we shop at Sungai Wang. I spend about RM200 there for pants and some small stuff. We ate Korean food for lunch. That's the first time I taste Korean famous Kimchi. It was nice, it just like acar with cabbage in it. ^_^" After lunch, we take taxi back to Pudu, then took 4pm bus back to Melaka.

It was tiring and exhausting for walking two whole day but worth it la. Since, it's been long long I never shop.

Back to Melaka

At last, back to Melaka... everything had to count on my own now... except living and studying with my dad's money. ^_^"

I found myself very lucky, coz Lay Fen staying opposite my house. It is much convenient for each other since we are neighbours now. Before I knew, I thought that I would be alone coz I'm not familiar with this place and that I would be suffering coz I don't have any transport and plus plus, my house are far away from food stalls but I consider myself lucky enough and that I'm grateful.

I would never ask for anything more. I just hope starting this new trimester. Things will flow smoothly. I just have to pray that everything is fine.

First day of School

Well, first day isn't bad at all, and isn't good at the same time. I felt the same, except that I have to work 10 min to reach to my venue and that include walking up and down the hill.

Besides that, first week are not so stressful YET. So I just enjoy while it last. I'm spend my time blogging, ROing and finishing my office stuff that I brought home. After that, I'm going to zzzz.... hahahah

Just kidding... I don't know what else to write now... I guess it's long enough. =p

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